I need serenity to accept the fact that I cannot be a stay at home mom, but so far, it isn't working. I cry daily because I have to be away from my sweet Addie and it's killing me inside. I told Zac today that either I can't be a good teacher because I'm trying to be a good mom, or I can't be a good mom because I'm trying to be a good teacher. Either way, something is getting the shaft because I have yet to find the right balance.
Then I see I need courage to change the things I can... so what does that mean? What is it that I can change? CAN I be a SAHM? Or, do I need to change my attitude? Is that possible? Because honestly, I don't see how it is...
So, I guess I'm looking at Him for the courage to know the difference because right now, I have no idea what it is. I'll just continue to pray for answers so that I can find happiness again. Happiness within myself, my husband, my family, my work, and my life.
I don't like my new "normal."
